I never really believed in karama right cuz I mean I seemed to always escape it and never really got mine. I just stepped on everyone with no regret no worries no heart.... there are people I should beg forgiveness from there are people that will probably never forgive me.... First person i want the world to know i am sorry to is len I cheated on him in a drunken state and he still cared enough to take me home try and calm me down and try to frgive me and what did I do did not care sorry for that.... then there was darren barnstable oh wow I would understand if you wanted to take me out back and shoot me I cringe at this story... well me and darren were getting pretty I wanna say inlove cuz thats what I told him.... and he came and got me from my parents house and we were on the run from my parents from that point on and I lived at his house till we found our own little apartment lol it looked like it was built by midgets on mushrooms haha but it was ours and after a while of partying with randi I met robby... and well see I told soooo many lies that I managed to keep darren and robby I made robby think me and darren were broken up when in fact we were the oppsite and I saw darren everyday and saw his pain and disregarded it totally... so I was cheating on darren with robby and darren knew the whole time and didnt do anything just watched someone he loved break his heart over and over I even brought robby to our place and slept with him in the next room and darren had to hear that.... then I left darren for robby and then I fucked robby over I cheated on him one unfortunate night and robby cared for me enough to stay with me anyway dispite everything I dont think he ever knew I was with darren so robby if you read this I was so not faithful to you.... next in line is brad... wow was that a gong show.... but ok here is how that went we moved in together after like 2 weeks cuz I had to move away and he was like well why not try it right?? so I did it was intense I think we fell in love way to fast and one night all drunk some one kissed me and I kissed back that was the first holy shit one kiss and I was like nope you gotta leave then I didnt take care and hung out with him still... then there was robby I went to robbys house and was just goin to watch a movie then go home and it ended up with a kinda make out session then once more got offered up I found my head again and was like I gotta go home ya.... then I almost left him for the man I am with now and even cheated on brad with him a few times.... then I stayed with brad and we treated eachother like shit but in different ways I was bitch and always mad at him I think it was because we spent way too much time together... but even tho I did all this he was my karma yup he got me good so in the end I cant say I am sorry to him cuz I am not I am glad I inflicted some pain to him... I think and wonder do I really wish things to be different?? do I wish none of that happened and we were still together and I missed all that heart ache?? or am I glad I got my karma and finally see the hurt and destruction I did to other people and got this new outlook on it all and am refusing to put forth that kinda hurt on someone again and glad I found some one I am happy with now??  I think I can honestly say I am glad with this out come the feelings I have now still hurt everyonce in a while and I have learned that forever is not always forever and that that saying treat people the way you want to be treated is true cuz your karma will get you mine just took alot it took someone that I thought was the love of my life and split my little family up I no longer get to see my sweet coder and chop stick and they lost ice ice baby and she misses them its intense karma kicked my ass over and over and hurt some people and pets on the way my little brother misses brad so much he has a tamagotchie or whatever and named it brad lol how cute! but sad oh well I am goin to finish on this note everything happens for a reason and now I am where I am saposed to be and we will see where things go with my friends family and love intrest........ and sara says hi!!